Which is more important? A human life or sovereign "law/justice"? Keeping in mind that Singapore court of justice does not respect the laws of the International Court of Justice AND the United Nations Human Rights. We're all here so fucking cooped up and being led on, we're not even socially aware of this. This has to stop. Save a life. Stop the death penalty.
You know. This pattern of natural disasters happening one after another is beginning to freak me out. I mean seriously. Something is going to happen. I can feel it. Whats next?
Back to updatin this thing again. Heh, i'm now a working man~ Woohooo, well at least for the next few months or so. So far so good, kinda like the environment, i won't tell you guys where i'm workin anyway. For those who know... just keep quiet only la eh. Office environment is quite okay i guess, only downside is to get a work area just beside the pantry, all office gossips u get to hear. Blergh. My 2 partners are ok, haha, guess im d only old bugger here.. Oh well. But then again, once i'm done with this attachment. I'm done with school. So thats a good thing. Right? I don't know. Just can't wait to get on with my life. Perhaps i need a break? Perhaps not. Ahh... Decisions and responsiblities weigh hard on you once you're 20 and above.
I was just wonderin. Does dressing like something makes me more of a person than you are? Cause i don't think so. But then again. I don't really need to prove anything. Damn right i don't.
11th Sept 2005
Hows this for a band logo? Nice and simple right? Comments?
One thing that really bothers me most is the public tendency to overlook these group of people. I mean. They just need more help than me and you. But personally each time i come across them, i just can't help but feel so very sad, but at the same time i'm thankful that i'm born into this world being able to function like any other human beings. In the end, it all lies back to simple things in life we take for granted... like
1. Being able to walk
Frankly speaking, if i were ever not able to see, hear and talk. I'd kill myself. Cos its pointless to live. Take a moment and think. I bet you'd feel the same way. You just want to help but have no idea exactly what it is you can do. Think about it.
And before you know it, its eating you from the inside.
Hello kids. Sorry about not updating regularly aye. Hmm. I don't know whether i should update this like any other update abt my daily going ons or what not. Hah. Basically i've no idea what to do about this blog already. Nooothing only la this blog. Baah. I doubt i even get visitors. To be realistic, to get visitors itself is an achievement i may say. Heh. Well. Found out some buggers found out my blog.. Naabeii..
Hmm, hottest news at the moment is the clearing of gaza strip of all israelis staying there. I may say that hearing and reading about it does nothing to you but once you get to see a live video on the ongoings over there, it really stirs up something in your head definitely. I mean. For the first time i see them pulling and shoving their own countrymen. BAAHAHA.
But the fact is, why not do the same like what they did to the palestinians? Where are the heavy duty riotgear, shields and truncheon sticks all that? I bet they deserve a beating thats for sure? Hmm... Double standards la ehk senang kata. It definitely is a big visual difference asides from looking at the common Palestinian throwing stones and Israeli soldiers with guns shooting bullets. Now... its Israeli soldiers unarmed and Israelis fighting with all their might. Hmm... weird as it may seem that they said that god gave them that land?
I'm not a racist or anything. But then, have they not checked their country's history? Israelis were so very spread out before the world war 2. The jews only settled there after the queen of england gave them that land which they slowly fought and expanded. The only thing i can say now is greed. Land=Greed=Money=Spill blood
Its a crazy fucked up world. And we're all just floating along.
Yesterdays punkfest at fullmoon was a BLAST! IT WAS FUCKING GREAT MAN. Even though the turnout wasn't really that many. But still it was great, i mean if the actions not there at the moshpit, you gotta create it or something right? Start it, cos you paid to enter, if not my money burn what. Pay and stand like rockstar for what fuck. Stupid. Hmm, somerset kids didn't come down like they said they would. Hmm, newbreed of kids are the dying breed ah. Not happening, just rich kids acting poor cos mummy daddy pissed them off or something. Spoilt mofos.
Whats wrong really. I'm really beginning to ask now, what have we all done wrong to make the dying scene worser than it already is? I mean, kids sometimes complain that we aren't really friendly and all that, but then again, think again, if you don't know us, then you talk to us as if you know us for ten years? Isn't that just plain disrespectful? THink about it yea? Hmm, well anyways, weird thing i realised tho, 98% of the bands were playing d beat yesterday, asides from Molotove and the Scums. Hmm, 1 thing i gotta say tho. Streetpunks are the dying breed around here. Moshpits by them? Doesn't even look like moshpits. I mean, its as if they're asking for some big shit to be initiated or something, then others would follow suit. Sheesh. What a disgrace. Time to finish up this proj man. Later kids.
IJ PUNK FEST.
I seriously need a good thai or a javanese full body massage man. Body is like creaking all over like a rusted hinge on a door. Hmm, weekends are finally here. YEAAAAAH. Enjoy. Well, err attachments like 2 weeks away.. i just can't wait to get out. Time passes by very fast before you even know it. Oh well, got used to eating alone at school. Ah the pains of having to graduate later than you're suppose to. Well i'm not complaining. Hmm, gig later at subc, ahh time to let loose and mosh sampai mati... If there is a moshpit i guess. Lazy ah want to type somemore. Lots of shows happenin very soon. I liiiiiiike~
I want ice cream.
I've come to realise, that whenever people tell me that i can't do something. I proved them wrong. Time and again. Everyone has stopped me from doing something and i did it. I'm passionate about the things i do cos its worth doing it and i feel great about it. So don't try to stop me. I'm not stopping, not now. Not EVER. Unless i stop breathing. HAHA
10 000 people fighting you
T. T. Durai, National Kidney Foundation's Annual Salary : S$600,000
Funds Needed to Address Human Issues
Hmm, currently listenin to Secret Garden - Adagio. Kind of cool classical stuff, yes yes classical you heard me right. But then again ah, if you really just laid back and listen to this song. It has this kind of mellow sad effect on you. The kind that really touches you and makes you really feel the song. Amazing. The wonders of music. Ok the badside of music, Baybeats was horrible. And i really mean horrible. My intention of goin there was not to listen to the music but to checkout the crowd. Loadsa kids aged between 14-17 mostly. I didn't even know there was a moshpit. Indie lame boring zzz bands can mosh ah? Amazing.
Bumped into some familiar faces and i kept getting hi's and hellos from alot of people. The typical know my name but i just draw blanks. I mean, thanks for saying hello ah. But sorry, who siak you all? It was a total fashion parade. The type of parade even a fashion police had a hard time to criticise. Weird weird weird.
Ok, this question sortof popped into my head. Whats the price of dignity nowadays? I mean seriously. Whats a person without dignity? I mean, a person cannot seriously respect him/herself without having dignity in the first place right? I mean, where to shove your face? Toilet bowl? Theres something wrong here. Dignity seems to have a price of its own nowadays like costing between 80 bucks to 150 bucks along certain alleys and even on the internet. Passion romance and love is a different thing. Sex for sale is another. Its such a pity. I'm confused really. I mean, what do you think?
oUh yeah, walked around south canteen and i saw someone familiar, but nah wrong person. But she resembled someone familiar from the past. Just look at her and my stomach cringed. I have no idea why. Hope to see her around again. Ok. Few more weeks and attachment time. Cya peeps.
Tralalala
Hmm, yesterday i was glued to the tv. Thats kinda rare, but what was shown was really interestin. I just got home from work and cnn was showing some funeral of some sort at bosnia. I mean, not funeral for one but funeral for thousands. Apparently they found a mass gravesite due to the atrocities of the genocide during the Bosnian-Serb war. Somehow they managed to digup the videos and show the events that occured. But what angered me the most was that, most of them women and children were separated from their husbands/fathers. And that the people that separated them were actually serb soldiers posing as U.N soldiers. I mean what the hell. Are these people not human? They kill due to difference and race. 1 minute you could be friendly neighbours. The next minute, your neighbour cud shoot a bullet up your ass cos he is of a different religion than you are.
It just doesn't make perfect sense
Blackfire - No control
living outloud, tearing my eyes out
I'm very much influenced by alot of these bands that influence punk metal and tribal sounds. Very unique and the lyrics are something that we can really reflect to. Shiok man. Bring it on!!!~
Somethings weird. Real weird. I can feel it. Bah. Anyhoo~ I don't really know whats the fuzz all about this IOC and whatnot. I mean, so? I mean, if you travel along cityhall. Its a super red hot zone right now. Gurkhas stationed at every single junction. Traffic police guiding the vehicles instead of the traffic lights. Baggage and body checks at raffles city, and tanks in the middle of the road. I mean, ok la police here and there, but was the tanks really necessary? I'm guessing they really went overboard on that part. Singapore the new police state. Hah. Plus the Lee authoritarian regime. Wooh. What a combination. Its like eating lontong and you findin there are so many stuff in the kuah lodeh. Baahaha.. konek ah.
That was nice to get off my chest. I've been really experimenting with alot of songs nowadays. And i have come to the conclusion that a fusion of cultural sound with heavy riffs no matter punk or metal really gives you that calming feeling. I mean imagine this, grinding drums and shredding guitars with tribal chants behind. Very the ooooh~ Shiok ah. mesti try satu hari. hak hak.
Its not too late. Theres always time.
The stress of this project work is really takings its toll on me, its still hard for me to accept the fact that i've been told to take an about turn and do it right from the beginning. I mean, hey maybe its a new start? Ah fuck. Have to stop this. My first presentations are on week 7, thats on the 14th of july. Thats abt 2 weeks away. I can make it. I know i can. Well, i decided not go for the crust night at KL this sunday. Oh well. I guess, i really need some time off to relax and let my body really slow down. I've been having like 14-18 hrs of work, at times, not everyday, and this is really killing me.
2 more weeks and i'm left with presentation. 2 more weeks and there goes my smoke buddies and lepak buddies. Who else can i fucken turn to. Ah knnbccb. New batch coming in soon. Hope they're friendly. Oh they better be. Past few days have been thinkin, i should have actually just serve the god damn army for 2 years before i go in this god forsaken polytechnic. Like what the malays say, "ringan sikit beban". Which means, "at least your load is lighter". Oh yeah, if anybody has ANY IDEA how to strip pylox paint from leather, please do tell me yeah?
Let people know that it is necessary that we must unify on all levels and all areas of oppression we must deal with that racism must be stopped. - Martin Luther King
Hmm. Back to short hair and bad hair days. There goes my hair and fringe that goes down all d way to my chest. Hmm, wore shoes for the first time in school after so many months. My mind can go berzerk if this goes on and on. Last saturday's gig was a blast. And it truly was, hurt myself more than i usually did. But really had fun in the moshpits and stuff. Wooh. Somehow it did relieve my stress. Well, i'm still clueless to how my project should progress considering that i have been forced to abandon my project and redo it, and i've got four weeks. There seems to be no ideas or inspiration pouring in. Hmm, maybe i've lost my touch? But i doubt so. I know i can figure something out and deliver this shit on time.
Asides from that? Everyone in the lab seems so tense and anxious to see the prime minister? Ouh puhleese. Go fuckyourself. Security seems to be ultra tighter right now. Boys in blue running around the school. Non uniformed officers also moving around. Met a neighbour this mornin who used to be in this school and transferred just a year after his year one studies. And yeah, hes going very well in his studies. Currently straight A's. I mean how cool is that? Hes a slacker like me. And we're same. In the sense that we cannot be controlled. You deprive me of my freedom to be creative, speech and ideas. Then you'll just get plain shit. Thats the fact and its as simple as that. No questions asked. Few more months and i'm reaching 20. The sudden thought of transferring to Republic Poly(The one my neighbour is in) seems quite nice. Grr... Just fucking get over with this school.
Teachers nowadays tend to lose their touch. You inspire the uninspired. Instead, now, they demoralise the uninspired. How do expect us to get creative? Until now. I realise how much i really treasure my freedom. I'm a wildfucker. I don't like control.
Control. Kontol. Sentol
This has got to be the worst day so far. I came in late fer lab, it was raining, and it was true i woke up late. Got in lab and got screwed by the course manager. Next met my supervisor and yes, got screwed again, and i have to come at 8.30am everyday from now on. How wonderful. *claps* Next was fucked by another supervisor, thanks for nothing for making my day. Then got fucked again by my supervisor. Biggest blow came when he asked me basically to scrap my project and re-do it. I really can't take it anymore. I'm like a balloon waiting to explode. He expects me to follow EXACTLY like this sample project that is so super basic and i bet whoever checks his sample project would be cursing too. Too much of animation, too much of text, too much of scrolling down the page. I mean, you call that comforting for a user to visit? That kind of web? Well screw you. The best part of all. I gotta cut my hair. Yes. I have to cut my hair. I HAVE TO CUT MY FUCKING HAIR
And all of this for what? Because the minister is coming next week. Yes PM Lee Hsien Loong, that racist fucking cheena bastard. I swear if we could buy guns. I would shoot him.
Hmm, well, somehow it seems to me that i've returned back to the blogging world again. With only less than 30 000 hits in 4 years, not bad ah? Or is that horrible. Blog hardly gets 30 hits a day? Who cares. I just vent what i want to over here. Final year project has really taken a toll on me, the time in school is seriously not enough and it is really stressful even when we have a so called "conducive" atmosphere and a "fast" pc for us to use. Fuck la. Lies lies lies. Have to continue my work from home. You guys should know me better, how much i fucken hate to drag my work home. Looks like i haven't really got much of a choice, plus having a hypocritical supervisor whos such a bastard. Give me a gun and i promise i'll shove it right in your face. With the safety off that is. Well, last saturdays pit that was full of worries and such went quite well really. REALLY well. bahaha... Well fuckers are goin off to ns very very soon. Seems like i'm among those who's stuck behind. Oh well. Better late than never. Adios~
I'm back bitches
Hmm, i could've sworn that my balls went numb when i woke up this morn. It was so freezing cold. And my feet ache, blergh, just what i needed to start my day off. Things i used to do can no longer be done, heh, the joy of always waking up past 12, sleep late in the morning or never at all. Go out, enjoy and stuffs. Time to get busy. Oh yea, plus point, yesterday was a failed attempt to skip school. How come, just how come when i want to skip sch, the supervisor just happened to pop in. Haahaa, he called me up and as per norm never pickup. But guilt later settles in and i gave him a call anyway. Went something like this
"Uh, hullo Mr George XXX?"
"Speaking, yes fad i demand an explanation!"
"Oh sorry ah sir, i was at the clinic ah didn't bring my phone ah"
"Wah sick again ah, must try get better... bla bla bla"
"Yes sir, but what to do, if sick, then sicklah"
"Ok, don't forget tomorrow pass M.C"
That was the part when i really asked myself. BUTO LAA KELUAR DUIT LAGI! NAK KENA APPLY MC BABI BETOL! No choice, just go only uh. Heng it was ten bucks tho. Ouh yea, the clinic experience was one thing.
I swear, that i don't mind waiting for 2 hrs to be attended to by a doc, but the doc was an asshole. From the start when other patients start to leave his room, i could see the anger in their eyes. And from what i'm seeing, things aren't gonna be good AT ALL. I mean, yeah Singapore's Health Board nurses, clinics are ok. But whats up with the attitude man? You're a doc and you're not paid enough or what? Seems like he has a stick up his ass. Needs a boot to the face perhaps? Oh well, i just shut my mouth, suck it in and just nod and go yes yes yes... All i wanted was the m.c anyway. HAAHAA.
The dream of everlasting peace. Is still a dream.
As per normal right now freezing my balls off inside lab. This mornin woke up, and kept delaying my alarm. Felt so freaking lazy to go to school, but what the hell~ My $$ supply is runnin low, mum never gave me enuff before she left. Guess i gotta make do with whatever i have left before they come back. Hmm, just got a new shirt from Botak yesterday, it reads "patriotic and ignorant" seems gramatically wrong to me, and doesn't really sound quite right. How i wish it would've read "patriots are ignorant". That would've sounded at least politically correct. Oh well. Hmm, am no longer gonna screen shirts from ignite cos i just found out one of my own shirts was screened off to someone else. Fucking hell. Babi nye kedai. BUTO SAMA LU!
Lab is so silent, while i'm blastin away vivisick at my ears. Oooh so soothing, distort it and thrash baby~ Yea, just my style. Loadsa year 2 and 3 friends realised that i'm very much alone this semester. Heh heh, i don't really mind, actually am kinda getting used to it. Well, what to do when the school loves you and just wanna have more of your money right? Smoking alone most of the time. Anyone readin this wanna be my smoke buddy? Anywhere anytime ah ladies and gentleman. Just gimme a call. Most of my sch mates have gone to serve this bloody country already. So that leaves my sch life and my personal life with quite a big empty space. Make do with what i have. Aaaaah. Bored bored. I need more songs. I need my tobacco kick. Toodloo~ Later kids, or whoever is still reading my blog. I doubt anyone does.~
Punkrock has never been for the elite. Now it has. I do not want to be a part of all this craze for fashion, money and fame. Fucking sellouts.
I'm back again typing stuff here after being gone for so long. Yeah, for those who keep reading my site and complainin why i don't update. I can just give this simple answer. AKU MALAS LAAA... Anyways, been busy lately with final year projects. Yes kids, you heard me right, i'm left with final year project, then attachment then i'm free from this school. 3 years plus worth of staying in school. Better to stay then to get kicked out like some of my friends right? Oh well. Vivisick and FxOxB last week was incredible. Like i said, if i never go. I CHOP OFF MY OWN COCK AHHH! Japs would be japs, and as always they put on a superb show for the crowd. Bodysurfin, circle pits, fooh, it was incredible. Heard that Tragedy would be coming soon, and Domestik Doktrin would be comin down this July. Can't wait can't wait. Mum and dad goin off for pilgrimage tomorrow, they deserve it alright, after saving hard and working their asses off, they really deserve it. I guessed they really mean it when they want to save up money from working. Not from selling house or something. Hmm, makes me think, wanna open up a fixed deposit account from OCBC. Thinkin abt my future. Better to be prepared than to regret later on right? Thats it for now fuckers!~
Sick for a week plus.
To all my friends,
Raihan
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Ask yourself.
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This is interesting...
Your Personality Profile
Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle.
You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs.
For you, comfort and calm are very important.
You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection.
You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong.
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The life of nothingness
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Work work
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Beat Merchant Studios
Near Zam Zam Restaurant
Jalan Pinang
Tix- $2
Time:4.30-10pm
Loud Scenesters Crashing Part II
Crucifera(Pulau Ubin)
Agony
XYogyakartaX
Bakteria
State Of Decay
Demilitarize
Endless Struggle
Mati Katak
MxAxC
Topsy Turvy
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Hows this?
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These abled people. Not disabled people
2. Being able to move your arms
3. Being able to hear
4. Being able to see
5. Being able to talk
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A d beat odyssey
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Fullmoon Beach Bar.
11.30AM-6PM.
Bands
Malaysia
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Skullcrusher
Skitsofrenia
Singapura
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Demilitarize
Distrust
State of Decay
Bakteria
Rejected Scums
Blinded Humanity
Agony
Tonggang Terbalek
MxAxC
Obscene
TEN DOLLAR ENTRY. be there or BE FUCKED
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Of backaches and aching necks
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Doesn't mean to say they're right
1 000 000 people loving you
Doesn't mean give up the fight.
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Outrageous Singapore ministers salaries
Singapore Ministers' Annual Salaries
Singapore President's Basic Salary : US$1,483, 000(SGD$2,373,100)
Singapore Prime Minister's Basic Salary : US$1,100,000 (SGD1,958,000)
Minister's Basic : US$655,530 to US$819,124 (SGD1,166,844 to SGD1,458,040) a year
United States of America
President : US$200,000
Vice President : US$181,400
Cabinet Secretaries : US$157,000
United Kingdom
Prime Minister : US$170,556
Ministers: US$146,299
Australia
Prime Minister : US$137,060
Deputy Prime Minister : US$111,439
Treasurer : US$102,682
Source: Asian Wall Street Journal July 10 2000.
Singapore President's salary which was updated in 2005 from the Singapore Straits Times.
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Provide Shelter: $21,000,000,000
Elimination of Starvation and Malnourishment: $19,000,000,000
Provide Clean Safe Water: $10,000,000,000
Eliminate Nuclear Weapons: $7,000,000,000
Eliminate Landmines: $4,000,000,000
Eliminate Illiteracy: $5,000,000,000
Refugee Relief: $5,000,000,000
Stabilize Population: $10,500,000,000
Prevent Soil Erosion: $24,000,000,000
Annual Spending by all UN Agencies: $10,000,000,000
(1.05% of military spending)
* based on 2003 estimate by Swedish International Peace Research Institute
* figures taken from information provided by World Game Institute
* UN Financial Crisis, Global Policy Forum
I'm revamping this site real soon. Make it very simple.
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Whats the price of dignity?
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burning memories, burning out
drink me away, into the next day
dilute yourself, its all the same
this record skips, my heart trips
drink your conscience to feel your soul
no control, no control you drink your conscience, to fill your soul
reflect the lie, change the light there are always two sides
too many shadows, to many echoes
i cant control, feel my soul
no control, no control you drink your conscience, to fill your soul
who are we? who are we but dreams? chipping away, at this reality
who are we? who are we but lies? unless we live our own lives
no control, no control you drink your conscience, to fill your soul
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Requiem
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Uninspired. Unmotivated. Demoralised
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When you are not happy, then you must be blue
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Why must this day be fucked up?
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Thrash holocaust
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FlashMxFlashMxFlashMxFlashMxFlashMx
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Distory world distort future
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I'm back
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Tribute to a fallen comrade
Present past and beyond
Especially those who weren't with us too long
Life is the most precious thing you can lose
While you were here fun was never ending
Laugh a minute only the beginning
This song's for you
Ever get the feeling you can't go on
Just remember whose side it is that you're on
You've got friends with you till the end
If you're ever in a tough situation we'll be there with no hesitation
Brotherhood's our rule that cannot bend
When you're feeling too close to the bottom
You know who it is you can count on
Someone will pick you up again we can conquer anything together
All of us are bonded forever if you die I die that's the way it is
1984-2005
Live punk. Die punk
A part of you dies among all of us